Guest post from Georgia Hall
It’s hard to explain the immense fear of going to sleep some nights. No matter what your most recent Blood Glucose Level (BGL) was, there is always that massive cloud of the ‘unknown’ hovering over you at night. Sometimes I don’t freak out, most of the time I don’t and we all know I have my slight case of OCD and my tendency to plan & pre plan, but I don’t think there is one night I go to sleep without re-checking my BGL or wondering what could happen (ok, so maybe I think too much).
It’s really scary when you think about it, if you’re BGL drops in the middle of the night and your body doesn’t wake you, what happens? This was one thing that really stunned me. One instance I can remember was that at a random 2am one night I woke up, as if my body knew, I checked my BGL and it read 2mmol (which is low – for anyone).
My fellow diabetes friends would know those sleepy trips to the fridge to raid as much sugar as you can far too well. Surprisingly it’s not as fun as it may seem, eating unlimited sugar when you would rather be sleeping. There have been far too many times when I’ve fallen asleep on the couch and before doing so I set an alarm to check just in case I fell asleep without checking my BGL before bed (I know, I’m a crazy person).
But it’s the things you have to do to make yourself feel safe and secure. It is terrifying sometimes, especially when you have a day when nothing has made sense with your levels (believe me, it happens) and you don’t know what on earth can happen when it’s out of your control while you sleep. So it isn’t a common occurrence, but there are some tragic stories out there, however if you focus on the positive, positivity shoots back in to your life right?
All I know is I do overthink, the other night I woke up with my eyes wide awake because in my dream my BGL was –Tmmol – I have no idea what that means, all I knew was that it was enough to wake me – and my BGL reading was perfectly normal in the morning, so who knows what it meant. I hope you all sleep easy tonight & every night. Every day I wake, it’s a miracle to be alive, because I made it through the night. Sweet dreams, literally!