Guest Post by Georgia
So I may have a slight case of OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disease). I have a tendency to plan and over plan things. For an example if I were to create a ‘to-do’ list sometimes (not often in my defence) I would make a list of what I need to put on my ‘to-do’ list.
I know, I’m crazy.
So recently I’ve got into the habit of documenting my daily blood sugar levels, insulin & food intake, as well as monitoring how much water I drink. I started this incentive whilst waiting to purchase the rapid-cal app (from recommendation by my Endocrinologist).
When I get to work in the morning I write down what my blood sugar was in the morning, the time, what I ate and how much insulin I gave. It brings me back to a slightly modified BGL Book.
When I was in high school and got diagnosed I was given a book to document all my BGL levels, carb intake and insulin. At first it helped, because we would bring it back to the doctor for them too look over and make sense of.
As I grew up, the book became tedious and something I would often forget to do. When I left school and the care of the hospital I chose not to keep the book up. I felt as though I was keeping good control over myself and my diabetes so from then on I depended on my brain and BSL & Pump records to work out my life.
This is when things went sour – not necessarily with my levels and care, but it was when monitoring and I mean ’Big Brother’ monitoring started to affect me. No one likes being scrutinized and that’s what I felt happened to me.
My Educator upon arrival would download my life (Blood Sugar Levels from my monitor) and query me on every check, every low, every spike and demand answers. As I mentioned I’m a little OCD – which means I can get paranoid, which results in me testing my sugars maybe a little too much, but hey better safe than sorry and some times when I check I know, that it will be an inaccurate reading because I either just ate or just exercised.
I got made to feel guilty for my checks at 2am . I got made to feel guilty for what level I was when I went to sleep and woke up. No one aside from someone living with diabetes has the right to judge, everyone lives their life differently and everyone with diabetes shouldn’t be placed in one category, every person is different – diabetes or not.
Which brings me to where I am now, I no longer see the Educator and I now have a new Endocrinologist and this time I’m documenting for me and my health.
I am yet to try this new app, but it has come highly recommended and since I am no longer on the pump, my Endocrinologist advised this would be useful for insulin administration.
Maybe my OCD will pay off for the better.
I will keep you posted,
Until next time.