Living with diabetes brings all sorts of extra worries, in the short and long term. I remember my Endo once saying to me that diabetes was a full time job and to be gentle on myself when it came to trying to fit everything into life. I am sure we all have fears. People have fears about all sorts of things. As people with diabetes, we have additional things to get scared about.
Do you have that?
For me, there are two 1) hypos and 2) getting a gastric illness. I have had awful experiences ( all of which I have survived) where I have been vomiting and these two fears come together with me going hypo and trying to shove glucose or lollies or lemonade in while throwing it up. And then later, the highs and the ketones.
I also have a child who had such bad gastric reflux disease as a baby, he had his stomach tied to prevent this. It means he can not vomit and any signs of a gastro and he has to take heavy duty medications to stop him getting into trouble.
So when there are bugs circulating our family run! Last night my 5year old threw up overnight and again this morning. I am hopping on a plane tomorrow. The paranoia is setting in – what if I get sick when I am away alone? Do I cancel my trip?
Do you think someone without diabetes would be thinking about that? Probably not. The “what if’s” creep in and then my mind is off and running. So this time I have decided to be mindful and just see what happens. To make a decision tomorrow. To try and focus on how I am feeling now and not how I “might” feel. To try not to let the fears and worries crowd my mind.
Wish me luck.
Do you have 1 big fear about life with diabetes? Please share – a worry shared is a worry halved 🙂
Founder and Director Diabetes Counselling Online, person with type 1 diabetes for 35 years,mum of 3 and blogger at www.recycledinteriors.org