Today is our last guest post from Georgia as our funding from the government ends next week. Georgia has been a fabulous part of our team over the past 3 years.We hope she will still write us the occasional guest post. Here is her final post to you all.
It’s been a great experience writing these blog posts for Diabetes Counselling Online. I started out writing the newsletter which then transformed to weekly blog posts. It was one of my first jobs, and has been a useful creative and emotional outlet for me.
When I first got diagnosed with Type 1 Diabetes I was overwhelmed, I wasn’t myself, I was scared, shy and constantly unhappy. I wanted to move States, change schools, have a fresh start – I thought that was going to fix everything. But the truth is, I had to learn how to become myself, and to be honest I’m still learning, and that’s okay. I’m not the same person I was last year, let alone 7 years ago, I’m forever growing and changing. When I look back to that girl in year 9 struggling I hardly recognise her.
This year it has been 7 years since I got diagnosed, and I still remember it like it was yesterday. I definitely have learnt a lot more about myself and how my body works, although there are still moments where I have no clue what to do and that scares me. The other morning my blood dropped from 15.7mmol to 2.7mmol in 15 minutes. Safe to say I was petrified. I was sitting at my desk, forcing sugar down my throat, shaking like a leaf and almost in tears thinking what am I going to do? It’s a very scary feeling, when you can feel the weight of your life in your hands and although it sounds dramatic, it isn’t. If I don’t get my Blood Sugar Levels (BGL) up then I can go in to a coma, it’s something I have fortunately not experienced and wouldn’t like to either.
My friends often say “I forget you have diabetes” and I guess it’s a good thing, because I don’t like to make it obvious or for it to define me, but I always think, I never do. There’s not one second that goes by when I don’t know, that I have to live with this for the rest of my life, that every decision I make I am reminded that I have diabetes and incorporate that in to everything. From going to a concert, getting on a plane, driving down to the shops or even having a snack I always have to stop before I do anything.
On the plus side, I couldn’t ask for better friends and family around me, they all understand and when I do check my BGL in front of them, they make sure I am okay. The best is that they make me laugh and I am so lucky to have them. That to me has to be the most important thing about life, your ability to still have fun no matter what.
As this is my last ‘official’ blog post, I want to say thank you to the team at Diabetes Counselling Online, especially Helen, who gave me a voice, to speak out about living with diabetes and also having confidence in me from the beginning and of course my audience – whoever you may be (if there is one!) for giving me someone to talk to about my highs & lows of dealing with diabetes.
Until we speak again, Georgia. Stay safe. Stay healthy & stay positive!